Neglected

It is being long time I not write this blog already,

It look like been ignored.

However,

It is not,

Just I am trying to get risk off something.

First of all,

Is about her,

I always though that she the one i found,

But i am wrong,

Is okay actually for now,

Just Wish that she is happy always.

The end of her doesn't mean is the end of my story,

It will go on,

And my character will continue find his another half.

Just recently busy with something,

Feeling like he been ignored by me.

Lone Lone.

"No matter how terrible thing had happen on you, the world still move forward. So you have to move on. If not, you maybe the one been neglected by world."(Raphael.G)

Seek

I am trying looking for something.

It is a key.

A key for my heart.

Although I found one,

But it is not mine.

It is someone else,

I just keep it for a while.

Kind of look so dangerous for myself.

This is because it will hurt someone if give to person who is not the owner of the key.

I just wish that key is mine,

It look so beautiful,

And very attractive.

I try to have it for that moment,

But at the end i been hurt by it.

It is so hurt.

However, it gave me an experience to let me go on.

After that, I keep the key and deliver it to a friend.

Hope my friend can help me found the owner of the key.

Is a kind of gift which I would like to share.

"Love is accept all what the other half have and don't have. Doesn't mean cannot be together not call Love. Just because I Love you, I wish you are real happy."(Raphael)

Vexation

Three months time, just like past years time.

Many things had been happen recently.

Happiness only short-term.

Sadness is painful.

Vexation always around us.

*sigh*

The most worry now is study.

This is because I can't concentrate on study.

The reason is very simple, I miss her.

I keep telling myself that I cannot be like this anymore.

The future is waiting for me.

Just sometimes I feel stresses and try to have a rest.

Drink just to try forgot you.

Try to stop missing about her.

But drink is not healthy.

*sigh*

Finding other way to relax myself.

Actually is try to escape something.

Hope that i can fly away from earth.

I wish I am superman.

Do something that the people so call hero.

Just I can't fly.

Because superman can fly.

*sigh*

Facing too many trouble till I don't know what I have to say.

Just keep escaping.

And also not forgot i am missing her.

(Her: If you saw this hope you don't put in heart. I don't want you worry about me. Because I don't want you not happy.^^)

Park

I went to park for a walk.

While walking i think about you.

Just can't stop.

Then i lean my body beside a tree.

It is a lonely tree as lonely as me.

I know its feeling.

So, i go accompany it as it accompany me.

I silent for quite a long time.

Thinking that what are you doing right now.

You happy or not?

Care you so much.

Maybe i think too much.

You just stay as usual.

Stay at home watching TV, hang out with friends.

Just like that.

Ya! i am thinking too much.

Until i don't know where i want to go.

Just because you are not with me.

Then i continued walk along the park.

I reached a playground and i saw a swing.

Wish that we can play together.

I hope i can push you from behind and you are sitting on the swing to have the fun.

I will very appreciated and enjoy for that moment.

Because it is valuable for me.

It is my only happiness.

Because you are happy.

Something Lack

I always think that i get used to be alone.

However, i still feel something is missing on me.

Lack something.

Every time i look at the phone, i hope that someone can care about me.

Talk about something with me, but not everyone can hear my voice.

In fact, i will tell nothing.

This is because i don't like people see my sadness.

I just wan to carry the sadness myself and share the happiness to everyone.

No matter how lonely am i till no one will care, i also will be happy in front friends.

Sometimes, i feel i am crazy and stupid.

This is because recently my mind keep appear your image.

No matter how, no matter where.

No matter how hard i try to stop it, i just can't stop thinking about you.

Then i just always missing you by looking at you picture.

I really fall in love deeply with you.

"Can't Find the Reason Why I Love You. Maybe that are no reasons for me to fall in love with you. Just because I Love You." (George.S's Word)

Reason

Sometimes, i very hope so that time can stop at that moment.

So i can feel the happiness.

In fact, i can't.

I often hide in the comer just to have a cry.

Wasting my time.

Because it is too hard for me.

I hope someone can help me and accompany me.

That why i always wish you can be with me.

just have a hug is enough for me.

I know this wont happen.

But i will not give up waiting you.

That why every time i going to bed.

I will wish that i can dream about you.

Just that little wish, sometime come true sometime not.

People might ask why i don't want to chase her?

i will answer never mind as long she is happy, i will wish her.

But in my mind, i wish that you can be my girlfriend.

i scare that you will reject me and scare that you and me cannot be friend as before.

Maybe i not gentlemen enough.

So i have to try to change myself because of you.

"Just because you love him/her, doesn't mean you have to change yourself to what he/she want. You can change but don't change your unit one because that is the only thing they may fall in love to you. Although the chance is less but still got chance to success." (George.S's Word)